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Lowdown on *Chan’s Bod*. From a young age, i had been complimented on my *sporty/lean* physique as well as my conventionally attractive face. I mean I had a boyfriend in nursery for christ sake. I will always love him no matter what. Thankfully we both found our true soul mates in life and im happy for us. He was so nice to me when I was just a kid trying to navigate the complexities of school and life in the religious sector. We parted ways because we were gender segregated post kindergarten. But I will always cherish our play-time together. I try to take care of my body that I so very much appreciate and value. Sometimes, unfortunately, the demons come out to play and for whatever reason they dont want you to bask in gods blessings. And so, it gets taken from you. And all that comes with having a beautiful exterior. I was gorgeous. That’s it. I still consider myself gorgeous. Sorry! After years bed-ridden due to my conditions, im pleased to say im gonna be ok. I really do believe that. I came out on the other side of grief, loss and trauma.

it was rainy today so, im wearing *Hunters* gifted to me by my s.o.

I am focused on my goals daily. I have been doing cardio for a long time. When I wasn’t in bed binging Netflix or engaging in interesting discussions online, I used to walk anywhere and everywhere while blasting hypnotic music. I loved the radio. Radio Disney was my light and outlet.

my first and only *real* boyfriend (my spouse courted *and stalked me* 🙃 but i never called him my boyfriend) 😅🫣 -Moishe Chaim Ephraim Bloch. He manages Meshuga for Sushi in Cali with his dad. A quaint mom and pop shop. Its a clean store- one of the only restaurants that provides *hand sanitzing wipes* . The sushi is nut free and delicious- especially with *spicy mayo* 🙂 😀

Post Church and Gym fix. Juicy. The order came with *mustard* on it. Really preferred my usual *ketchup* on patty but whatevs. It was satisfying 😌 fast service, friendly staff and clean establishment. Id come back. Food for every Scoff 😋 💋

thankfully the Church i attend encourages voices to be sung in a choir by women for All. That’s one of the qualities my spouse adores about me- my beautiful vocals. Im truly fortunate to be free to sing in front of any gender. 😘🙏💕

dress: bergdorf

boots: lucent

a mazelDick’ voch 😘💋

keep drinking it Folks ♥️💋

Gezunteit 💋💋

Rawr! B*** in der Kitch oorah

I like it Thweet and Thauthy 😋 😏 😍

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So F***n git 🙄 😏

I miss my friends from Ktown! Nara, Joy, Adrian and Darius dis is for you guys ♥️💋 gd luv ya 😘 💖

I love adorning myself with a variety of buttons. Ever since I was taught to sew, I enjoy analyzing detail to accessories that much more *shrug*. I prefer originality over a cheap copy. Dont you agree? This *puff sleeve* rich Blue mini dress 👗 was designed and sewn by mwa. I absolutely love when our Hotel stays provide *sewing kits* for us when we travel, don’t you?

At Joel’s funeral, I was asked if I wanted to give over a eulogy. I politely declined the offer. Growing up *Public Speaking* and singing were not encouraged for the female gender. What happens if she’s a *they* now? Or as Joel liked to describe: *androgynous*. I wonder. I haven’t *asked a Rabbi* or a Jewish authoritative figure about it.

DJ 8 Ball and I at Brachts in Hanover Park, Illinios. May he rest in peace. 💔

When i arrived in Austrailia, I was hounded with culture shock in addition to more *rules* and restrictions. It was like going from one prison facility to the next. I felt trafficked. I had worked my entire life for the experience of finally getting to meet *Chaim* – Joel’s most cherished bestie, aside from Charlie Hendlish. I was forbidden yet again from riding on a horse. Ive frequented *Griffith Park* on many occasion during my time at summer camp as well as family weekend trips. It was a non-issue to take part in that wonderful hobby. I appreciate being able to place *one leg on each side* now. My husband also loves it when I wear a *Chasity * belt when we fornicate in bed. He likes having that much power over someone just as powerful- maybe even more (if I do say so myself). 🤷

Chaim, a survivor asked me: “How is my *son*”. At the time of our long awaited meet-up, he was way into his seniority. He tried to tell me about an encounter he had with a nazi. I didnt quite understand what he was trying to express to me but I listened and was receptive to his anguish. He was so traumatized I could hear it in his voice. He gestured to his leg and told me in a trembling and shakey cadence- *they shot my leg*. I dont know much about Chaim. Joel seldom spoke about alot of what *went down* during that trying time in his life, understandably so. In later years, he told me he was open to me writing a memoir about him. I guess this blog is my way of honoring his legacy. 👋

these are one of my favorite types of penguins 🐧 😍 ❤️ 💕 *The Macoroni Penguin*. I just think they are super *exotic*. 💋

we enjoyed this refreshing and satisfying drink today on our fun outing 😀 😋 😊 its from Hardee’s.